Dienstag, 10. Februar 2009

simple moves..i continue!

Some days have passed now and i noticed, i totally left my "Anti-Love" Myself behind (but for how long?). I noticed it when i pushed this guy away last saturday @ Muko. Yeah Muko of course i saw Pierre again... but it didnt hurt anymore. I can look at him and his Girlfriend, knowing that i could have been there in his arms instead of her, but i guess i ruinied it myself. LIKE ALWAYS.

And no matter how much you try not to fall in love, you fall mad and deeply anyways! The heart wants what it wants. If its love at first sight, or love where there has been friendship before. I !?was/am!? in Love now for the 6th time. And still havent heard the words "I love you" from someone. Macho Days are over. It's time for a little Drama once again! Craving. Wanting what you Cant have and being something that noone wants. Bathing in sweet melancholy. Of course little Crushes count too! They are nice once in a while. Sweet secrets, better hidden than shown. Yea i'm talking bout the "just looking at him makes me happy"-crush kinds.

But it would be nice to hear "I love you" one time. Mabey i'm doomed not to be loved? Mabey it's my fucking destiny. HELLO!? 6th time i tells ya! There must be something wrong with me!

Although...i have so much love to give. You know..there were 3 people, i loved over 2-3 years, even if they didnt loved me back and just were friends. 3 Years! Yea dammit i can love someone that much! I have a river full of love to spent, but no one wants to take a cup out of it. Sometimes i even think i couldnt be a good girlfriend, but sometimes, like today, i think a boy wouldnt regret it to have me as a girlfriend.


  • I would support every dream HE has and help him achieving his goals.

  • I would show him, that he's the one and only. that there's no need for jealousy.

  • I would walk over 1000000 miles too see him even if its for a little time

  • I would give him the sweetest time in life...

    • and much more...


BUT i think noone i fell in love with ever thought i'm capable of all these things...

for now it seems hopeless again..like always...but mabey this time destiny is kind to me.

posted by angelusmelancholy at 11:10