Mittwoch, 11. Februar 2009

chats dating sites wahtever...

Some people you're talking to on MSN, ICQ, Chats whatever, whatever...someday they start to annoy you. You cant get to know them by this random bla in public chats like "Single? From where? How old? Hobbys? Sex?!" XDDD ... Surely, there are some nice and lovely people behind those oh so stupid uncreative dialogues. But HELL it's the Internet! True personality cant be really shown just over chatting with somebody! You have to meet them in person! Sometimes i made exceptions and met somebody by thinking

"Oh i'll meet him so that he's gonna shut the fuck up and doesnt ask me out anymore!!...", but I didnt regret it afterwards! O_O...some of those people are still friends now. Yea, Friends. and Thats all. i never met somebody by thinking that i might fall in love with them.

Mostly, you behave like "one of the boys" and not like a wanna-be girlfriend around them. And that's why they think "Oh she's cool and fun to hang out with.", and dont even think about falling in love. In short: I dont even believe that you can find your special one over chats! get to know them in person! Yous ee this cute guy on the bar in the club?? Go ask him if he wants to dance! (Okay clubs are not the best place either..but its more directly AND personal if you do it that way!)

When he sees that you smile a lot and that you're a fun loving person, he might whispers something nice in your ear. And mabey, afterwards he wants your phone number or your e-mail. But dont get lost in too much chatting! Do not wait to long to meet them back in person. Clubs arent the best places for dates because the music is loud and you dont understand each other well. (i remember that i left the club with some guy just for a while. When i met him, he had to go so we saw each other the week after again. and we parked in the teachers parking area of my school and talked xDD <- that was a good idea! afterwards we returned to the club and his friend was angry because he stole his car rofl...) I really dont even know why i'm writing this o_O;...these are just some random thoughts floating around in my mind. guess i just wanted to say this: I hate it to talk to people i barely know on messenger! I want to meet them to really get to know them. So that i can understand what the ythink by writing this or that! Sometimes i dont even know what to write...you just say Hi, how are you, and tell some random stuff , just to keep contact between the time where you're gonna met them back in real life -__-;;... by typing,,, and chatting you never know when the other person is getting annoyed by you, or if she really likes talking to you! YEA WEBCAM PLEASE!? hello? ... you can sit there with a bored face and yet write "ROFL" ..who doesnt do this?? Show me anybody who actually really rolled on the floor while he laughed o__ô ... Webcam is a ..cam you wtach...you dont look each other in the yes! You look on a screen ..with..eyes and..yea.. i gotta go to sleep seriously...gn8

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posted by angelusmelancholy at 04:46

Dienstag, 10. Februar 2009

simple moves..i continue!

Some days have passed now and i noticed, i totally left my "Anti-Love" Myself behind (but for how long?). I noticed it when i pushed this guy away last saturday @ Muko. Yeah Muko of course i saw Pierre again... but it didnt hurt anymore. I can look at him and his Girlfriend, knowing that i could have been there in his arms instead of her, but i guess i ruinied it myself. LIKE ALWAYS.

And no matter how much you try not to fall in love, you fall mad and deeply anyways! The heart wants what it wants. If its love at first sight, or love where there has been friendship before. I !?was/am!? in Love now for the 6th time. And still havent heard the words "I love you" from someone. Macho Days are over. It's time for a little Drama once again! Craving. Wanting what you Cant have and being something that noone wants. Bathing in sweet melancholy. Of course little Crushes count too! They are nice once in a while. Sweet secrets, better hidden than shown. Yea i'm talking bout the "just looking at him makes me happy"-crush kinds.

But it would be nice to hear "I love you" one time. Mabey i'm doomed not to be loved? Mabey it's my fucking destiny. HELLO!? 6th time i tells ya! There must be something wrong with me!

Although...i have so much love to give. You know..there were 3 people, i loved over 2-3 years, even if they didnt loved me back and just were friends. 3 Years! Yea dammit i can love someone that much! I have a river full of love to spent, but no one wants to take a cup out of it. Sometimes i even think i couldnt be a good girlfriend, but sometimes, like today, i think a boy wouldnt regret it to have me as a girlfriend.


  • I would support every dream HE has and help him achieving his goals.

  • I would show him, that he's the one and only. that there's no need for jealousy.

  • I would walk over 1000000 miles too see him even if its for a little time

  • I would give him the sweetest time in life...

    • and much more...


BUT i think noone i fell in love with ever thought i'm capable of all these things...

for now it seems hopeless again..like always...but mabey this time destiny is kind to me.

posted by angelusmelancholy at 11:10